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So there I am! Living it up in my 30-somethings with a ridiculously hot hubby, 3 seriously outgoing matter-of-fact smart beautiful kids, a cat named Roxii that just won't quit, 2 chihuahuas named Lokii (what was I thinking) and Brodii who don't understand the concept of pee outside.

I'm a strongly opinionated, outspoken, inappropriate and absolutely unapologetic chick going through this thing called life and trying to do it with my sanity intact. So far, this isn't working out so well!

Follow me as I confession myself straight to the LCBO. My rants, my way...you've been warned ;) Xo

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Hey guys!

I seem to go through these phases of being online and writing, and then a physical journal to just nothing at all. When it is nothing at all everything seems to just build up until I lose my shit.

Let's see...

I had the worst 2019 ever. January 18, 2019 I lost one of the greatest men this life has ever seen, my father. He was literally a good part of me. Not that I'm all bad parts, but he taught and raised me to be brutally honest, to protect what I love fiercely and to not give a fuck what anyone thinks about me or my business. This last year I have lost some of that. I have started to care about my people and things I shouldn't. If he was here he would kick my ass back in line and tell me to smarten the fuck up. I miss him. Too much.

I also changed jobs again. Yes, I seem to do that compulsively too because I can't handle, well won't either, stupid people. I honestly am not sure how some people have made it as far as they have in this life. Grow up already. Stop embarrassing yourselves.

I'm enjoying what I'm currently doing (retail), BUT I would much rather be private investigating again, doing a lot more virtual assistance stuff and generally being my own boss. A lot less hassle and no stupid people to deal with because I'd be alone!

Something else I've done...again. Gain weight. Surprised? Of fucking course not! Stress, anxiety, sugery, medications etc just drains a person...and apparently can fill them with fat too! Everytime I hear (or see) someone saying/writing 'omg, I've gained like 5lbs, I'm so fat' I'm going to stalk them, corner them and proceed to throat punch the fuck out of them. If 5lbs was all I had to worry about the last time I would be doing is complaining. So sorry your size 0 pants feel a little snug. Your entire waist would fit in my back pocket bitch.


So what am I going to do about it. I am not going to New Years resolution it because those who set them, usually fucking fail within 7 to 14 days after setting one. I am simply deciding that 2020 has to hold so much more for me. I want it to make up for the shit humanity has put me through over the last while, that life has thrown at me, that I have watched my friends go through. I'm angry. For everyone and for myself.

I have already put my plan into motion. Step 1 is complete and I am waiting for Step 2 confirmation. In addition to that I purged the fuck out of my Facebook "friends" list. If you didn't give enough shit about me to reach out once in awhile WITHOUT needing something from me, you went to trash. I don't give two fucks where you went, just that you did. And I'm really not 100% sure if I finished the purge either. I may be going back through it once again. I really need to think on the whole what a friendship actually means and just do like Frozen and let it go. I could rant for hours on how assholey people are, how selfish and self serving some of those pieces of shit are but I may save that for a future post.

So alas, here is to 2020. I will be blogging more frequently as I am switching to online as much as I can so that it is always saved somewhere, and you lovely readers won't get periods of this big picture missing along the way. I need to refind myself again, the one that was outgoing, funny and just did not give a fuck what people thought. I think it will make for a most excellent new me.

Nothing says signing off like a Bill & Ted's Excellent Adventure tag.

Be excellent to each other!