The last few days have been a struggle. By that I don't mean anything except things going on that prevented me from heading to the gym and having to make do with what's at home.
That said when I am consciously NOT trying to lose weight and just being, I usually maintain where I'm at.
When I am consciously aware of what's around and going on and being mindful but not necessarily working out (because it's not like I was prior to getting the gym membership) I gain.
WTF!
It's not like I'm sitting here at home and eating MORE or eating worse foods than before. I am being the exact same so why the fuck is the scale going UP!
I know your weight will fluctuate...fine. I know your body composition changes daily...fine. But I also know that I've weighed myself daily for the last 15 years so I know what my body habits are like and being up almost 3lbs is NOT one of it's habits.
That would mean that I have eaten 10,500 MORE calories than I normally do which I'm telling you right now is just not the case.
I know one of the culprits in this in stress. I have more stress on my shoulders than normal (sometimes I think than even humanly possible) but this is ridiculous.
I have to get that under control or this is going to be one seriously hot mess. I can't be dealing with this shit as well as everything else but I certainly am not letting myself go.
That said when I am consciously NOT trying to lose weight and just being, I usually maintain where I'm at.
When I am consciously aware of what's around and going on and being mindful but not necessarily working out (because it's not like I was prior to getting the gym membership) I gain.
WTF!
It's not like I'm sitting here at home and eating MORE or eating worse foods than before. I am being the exact same so why the fuck is the scale going UP!
I know your weight will fluctuate...fine. I know your body composition changes daily...fine. But I also know that I've weighed myself daily for the last 15 years so I know what my body habits are like and being up almost 3lbs is NOT one of it's habits.
That would mean that I have eaten 10,500 MORE calories than I normally do which I'm telling you right now is just not the case.
I know one of the culprits in this in stress. I have more stress on my shoulders than normal (sometimes I think than even humanly possible) but this is ridiculous.
I have to get that under control or this is going to be one seriously hot mess. I can't be dealing with this shit as well as everything else but I certainly am not letting myself go.
