No matter how many times someone says making choices in life aren't always easy, let me tell you, this last 2 weeks has been ridiculous. One one hand you have the decision that appears to be very black/white with no room for any shades of grey, and then in the other is the choice that does raise questions BUT...they are really really great ones and it leaves you even forgetting about the other hand completely.
Naturally both have long lists of pros and cons. Naturally you ask for input from others because just maybe they will shed some light on things that you aren't really seeing. Naturally even though you are checking in and asking these people at the end of the day the decision still has to be made by me.
More and more I am seeing people use the old 'do I go with my head, my heart or my gut'. These decisions are stressing me out so much I don't want to use any of those, I just want to crawl into a ball and go to sleep for a month and see if anything has sorted itself out by the time I wake up.
Ok, that's a lie. For those that personally know me, you know that I will talk this out until it's a dead subject and then even jump on top of it and still be questioning it. Why? Because I'm much to confrontational to just let it be. Too many times have I been taken advantage of in the past that it got to a point where I was like enough is enough. Now I just don't give a ... yup, shit, about what anyone else thinks because at the end of the day I'm ok with who I am and honestly I don't have the energy, nor the desire, to fake my way through life.
SO what do I do? That is still the question. Opportunities have come my way and all so appealing that I just don't know. I have factored in family (most important), travel, money, responsibility, opportunity and each give really great arguments. *SIGH*
Maybe the batting cages will help enlighten some decisions...well, then again, it could do absolutely nothing to help BUT...at Sundays baseball game I may just play a little better too!
To Be Continued...
Naturally both have long lists of pros and cons. Naturally you ask for input from others because just maybe they will shed some light on things that you aren't really seeing. Naturally even though you are checking in and asking these people at the end of the day the decision still has to be made by me.
More and more I am seeing people use the old 'do I go with my head, my heart or my gut'. These decisions are stressing me out so much I don't want to use any of those, I just want to crawl into a ball and go to sleep for a month and see if anything has sorted itself out by the time I wake up.
Ok, that's a lie. For those that personally know me, you know that I will talk this out until it's a dead subject and then even jump on top of it and still be questioning it. Why? Because I'm much to confrontational to just let it be. Too many times have I been taken advantage of in the past that it got to a point where I was like enough is enough. Now I just don't give a ... yup, shit, about what anyone else thinks because at the end of the day I'm ok with who I am and honestly I don't have the energy, nor the desire, to fake my way through life.
SO what do I do? That is still the question. Opportunities have come my way and all so appealing that I just don't know. I have factored in family (most important), travel, money, responsibility, opportunity and each give really great arguments. *SIGH*
Maybe the batting cages will help enlighten some decisions...well, then again, it could do absolutely nothing to help BUT...at Sundays baseball game I may just play a little better too!
To Be Continued...
