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So there I am! Living it up in my 30-somethings with a ridiculously hot hubby, 3 seriously outgoing matter-of-fact smart beautiful kids, a cat named Roxii that just won't quit, 2 chihuahuas named Lokii (what was I thinking) and Brodii who don't understand the concept of pee outside.

I'm a strongly opinionated, outspoken, inappropriate and absolutely unapologetic chick going through this thing called life and trying to do it with my sanity intact. So far, this isn't working out so well!

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30 Things: #2 - 3 Legitimate Fears

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Alright so I may not be doing this daily but I'm going to get through that 30 Things list either way. I knocked off #1 pretty quick and now I'm going to tell you about #2 which is to list 3 legitimate fears and explain how they came to be fears.

Fear #1
I absolutely hate little spiders. Yes I said little spiders. Tarantula's do not bother me, in fact I find them interesting and pretty but little spiders I just can't handle.

Why? Mostly because I can't see where they are, where they are going or where they could actually be going (aka up my nose? in my ears?). Ask my husband, I will NOT go to sleep if I have found or seen a spider (or basically any other creepy crawly) in my room at night, and he (and even one of the kids on occasion) doesn't find it and perform some crazy UFC smack down TKO type ninja shit on it. He has to show me that it is dead as well or I go crazy and keep thinking stuff is crawling on my body and I want to change into a snowsuit to make sure they don't get in (shut up, I know it's still possible).

Fear #2
Despite the fact that I am supposed to be medicated (told you guys to run didn't I?) I refuse to take anything, even for things like headaches or any other type of pain relief medication. Medication in general I suppose.

Why? Because I have managed to convince myself that I will take it, even if it's given to me by a certified medical professional who has my best interests at heart (so they say), and that I won't wake up the next day. That somehow it will conspire with my body while I sleep (and yes it's only if I go to sleep at some point after the fact) and I will OD or some sort of crazy stuff will happen and I will cease to be alive anymore. I do not have any previous mishaps with drugs or anything like that, I'm very anti-drug, but I somewhere along the line just convinced myself that I will die if I ingest it at any time upon falling asleep. I'm neurotic I know.

Fear #3
That no matter how many locks, chains, nuts, bolts and alarms stuff available that someone is going to break into my house and steal my children.

Why? This is clearly because I became a parent after saying I would most likely never have children and as a result of having them I am so completely protective of them that I never ever want anything bad to happen to them and if hubby or I are not the ones with them that there is potential for something to happen. This started about 8 years ago and now results in me not really sleeping at all ever. I wish eventually have a 'crash' and be out cold every few months for a solid 8-10 hour sleep but in general a typical night for me in entirely restless and I am awake every hour or hour and a half even if brief and listen for the little snoring or sleep talking that occurs a lot, once content that I hear all them (and if I don't I will get out of bed and go check) I will go back to sleep again for an hour to an hour and a half and it starts all over again.

I figure this plays a vital role in why I am a serial entrepreneur and have to stay crazy busy because if I sit with nothing to do and bored then I think too much. I also cannot fall asleep during the day because I am paranoid that I will miss out on something...even if there is nothing to miss out on!

I'm a crazy one kids :)